Archive for August, 2008

Update on Racquel Alexis…

A year ago today
posted on 08/23/2008

Racquel, Lautrice and I were driving through downtown today.  We remembered that we had taken this route many times during the previous year.  It struck us that a year ago today we almost lost our baby.
A year ago today we received a call that told us that our baby was in bad shape and the doctors didn’t know what was wrong.

A year ago today she had stopped breathing 4 times during the night.
A year ago today she stopped breathing for the fifth time when she grasped her mother finger.

A year ago today I stood over her bed and tried to accept the fact that I would never see her grow up. I would never have those battles with those knuckleheads who thought they were worthy to date my daugher, I would never see her go to prom.  I would never see her graduate from high school and college.  I would never dance at her wedding.

A year ago today I tried to accept the fact that all of the people who had cared for her without knowing her would never get to know her.  That they may have felt the their prayers fell deafly on the ears of God.

A year ago today I watched my wife fall apart in front of my eyes and wondered if she could ever be made whole again.
A year ago today I was about to give up……..But instead I surrendered.

I surrendered all of my (perceived) control to God.

I removed my hands from the wheel and let him drive my (and my daughter’s) situation.  Instead of drowning in self-pity fueled with the the days that were about to be taken from me.  I gave thanks for every second he had given to me.  I gave thanks for the opportunity to move a step closer to him.  I gave thanks for the joy that I had been given.
A year later, Racquel is healthy and full of life.  She is all that I could ever want and more.

A year later I am still thankful for all of you.

 

Willie

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